160808 - post drinking

。。。A rather cheery good morning!

I sit on the musty sofa in my room. IV is sleeping in a corner. I look around the apartment and cannot imagine I am in Japan. It seems like nothing is really different. Language remains just as mysterious and the years of studying Japanese has helped in not making everyday life a totally alien concept but something that gets by with some reading and a lot of guesswork. Considering the complexity of human relations and character, I cannot detect so far a difference in how there might be a cultural chasm that separates one from the other. But perhaps that is the exact chasm that exists, that I continue to live in my own dream and merry-making while the external party treats me as nothing but a passing inconvenience that will flitter away after a while.

That makes me wonder if I am talking as if I am trying to become part of the group. To that, the answer is simple - it never will be. As such, there is nothing more than just to live my life to what I think I would like to achieve, and try having fun in the process.

Yesterday sounds like a mistake actually!

Oh well, we learn.