Rants

I feel a little miserable now so I took the opportunity to vent to HY. Here're the exerpts of our conversation which I guess will summarise my feelings for now:

Today was perfect all the way.

Until the last part before I left when I hurriedly asked my supervisor about a strange electrical bill I received.

It threatened to cut my phone line (I think) if I do not pay by next week.

I guess I sounded hurried and panicky because I really cannot imagine not having internet access at home.

He asked me to wait/calm down.

The thing is i am always quite affronted whenever he does that.

It is maybe because I don't have warm vibes with him.

I think I am thinking too much.

Anyway we ended up with I should check through my receipts and stuff and get back.

So I'm frustrated on a couple of accounts.

Firstly with him, because I have to figure out and do a lot of things myself and I am really tired.

I still don't have my bed and it is winter.

Then also with settling down in Japan and I wish all these administrative problems will disappear.

Quite sian about it.

But I have good reasons why I am bad in thinking that way.

Over the weekend, my supervisor went to Osaka and bought me souvenirs.

Then another teacher gave me a school tee which looks cool and I always wanted it secretly.

It relates to the second point above, that everything i really need to do myself, including planning for vacations.

I guess I am starting to be tired of being responsible for myself.

I want to be babied and pampered!

Then I look at my situation of no girlfriend and I go sian.

Then Japanese  language also going nowhere though I must say it is improving but slowly.

Then like just now, I was so angry with myself again.

Recently I started realising I overbuy groceries.

And then they rot and I throw.

And due to that I end up overeating.

I am so angry also.

I bought bakwa over.

Then I never give out and they're expiring this month.

I think I will just give out to all teachers.

Actually I know most of these problems can be solved easily.

I just need to vent.

So tiring!